Mike's been really fun with all this; for a long time I was worried that he would always be okay with being the two of us, and I've felt like I've been ready to think about kids for a while. He's always said that he wanted to be surprised when we started having kids, and I think he was! When I first found out, I was in the midst of working a bunch of overnights at work, meaning I was working 9pm-6am or 6pm-3am, and he was in typical student mode, mostly days and into the evenings, so we literally didn't see each other for days on end. The day I found out, he happened to wake up in the wee hours of the morning when I climbed into bed. I asked him if he was awake, and he said sort of. I said if I wasn't going to see him for the next three days I had something to tell him, and I told him I was pregnant. He asked how sure I was, I said pretty sure, and then he went back to sleep. I was a little worried that he would think it was a dream the next day or not even remember, but he called me in the afternoon before I went to work, and he proceeded to list off all the vitamins and supplements that he had gotten that I should be taking for me and for baby :)
I'm due June 30th, and I feel so lucky to be literally surrounded by knowledgeable and wise people who know what they're talking about when it comes to kids. I'm reading my books and worrying that I'm not worrying enough, but mostly I feel supported, not prepared by any stretch of the imagination, but in that inevitable time when Mike and I won't know what to do, that we have countless people to call on for help and support. And in that, I feel ready to have a baby, not in my abilities or how well I can prep, but in the village of people that have chosen to love and support both Mike and me.
