Missions...

Please read previous post first, much more fun, this one little random, not fully processed, maybe better by the end of writing it. Previously called this blog "Mission moments with Meg and Mike," but now I've changed it. Amazing, technology, one day it's a title, the next it's not. A title seems so permenant, so final; once it's there, it's there. But it's not anymore. I'm feeling a little distant from the whole missions thing. Still think I'm hear for a reason, that I'm doing what I'm doing for a reason, that God in His infinite knowledge and understanding is in control and that He doesn't allow anything to happen without His cosmic OK, but I'm lost as to where I'm going these days. And maybe that simple statement is why. I used to look so big, so planetary, so grand, and I think I forgot often times about the here, the now, the people right in front of me, about me and my life.

Life is so much smaller, and larger at the same time, and now, with a little perspective, I think I'm seeing this more clearly. I am only one person, but I am one person. I can only do so much, but as PK in the "Power of One" says, a great water fall starts with a single drop of water. This is real life. Me going to work, selling clothing, interacting with the other significant people all around me, my co-workers, the customers, the other employees in the mall; we are a microcosm that is not so micro. Frederick Beuchner wrote once about how mankind is a huge spider web, and that no man is an island, that no man is separate from the repercussions of any other person's actions; no part of the web goes unmoving when one part is plucked or pushed. Everyday, I cause a quivering in my part of the web, for good or bad, and who knows how far that influence is felt.

I want to start living for now, not that we won't plan on the future, but what exactly gives us that right? We are not promised tomorrow. So as soon as I fulfill all my responsibilities as a responsible working person, I'm going to book the ticket that Mike and I have earned over the past five years, and go see my sister who almost got deployed this spring in Hawaii, and I will leave two weeks from today. I have the pto, I have the free ticket, Mandy has the time and wants me to come, and it's okay with my boss. I will grab this day, this opportunity and make the most of it. Does it make sense? Should I save this ticket? Maybe. Maybe not. But I want to see my sister. And I think sometimes, we think too much. I will cover my bases and just go, with no other plan but to go.

The current title of this blog is "M & M-ing Moments with Meg and Mike." Mike and I will continue to tell you of our happenings from this small part of the web; may it vibrate your part of the web, like sine waves matching up and strengthing each other, harmonizing your wave with God's for your life, not for what Mike and I set out to do, not for our mission, but for our every day happenings, for our real life experiences. What's happened yesterday and today. Tomorrow we'll tell you about tomorrow...